I had a bit of a medica issue, the flu, with a touch of pneumonia that put me in the hospital for four days. As a result I didn’t write any posts for a number of days. Surprisingly I didn’t feel any sense of withdrawal. Thinking about that I have determined that may be because the majority of my postings just aren’t that entertaining. I mean, even I didn’t really miss them. I’d say it was a bit of an eye opener. I didn’t experience any life altering revelations, I’m not breathing a sigh of relief that I have survived, just made aware of the obvious. I have been in denial. It’s strange because I am the one that has written , on more than one occasion, there is little one can say that hasn’t already been said. I’ve been trying hard to say something! What I have learned is, for the most part, people just want to hear their own thoughts, just written down by someone else.

With this new view I have decided I should change things up somehow. I’m not certain what direction I should go. I’m thinking my original thought about just leaving a sort of record of my thoughts, my stories and current events is still a good idea but there is a problem with that. It’s not very interesting in the present day. What I mean is you have to have been gone for a while before any of that becomes a source of amusement. I thought that I was different from everyone else I guess, I didn’t need any feedback, any validation. As it turns out, I do want that. It’s a tough admission. OMG, is that personal growth? I’ve heard people do that.

So, it a way I’m seeing this a new start. Now all I have to do is figure out what to do about all of that. It would seem like the majority of my random thoughts and memories only appeal to a niche audience. Funny word, niche. A small nook or cranny tucked away in the corner somewhere. Yeah, I guess that would describe me pretty well. Never known for being the popular guy but also unobtrusive unless pulled into the situation. Not sure what I could write about that would be of interest to others. I’m no expert on anything at all, I am the proverbial jack of all trades and a master at none.

Of course I don’t think there is anything wrong with talking to yourself or writing those thoughts sown for that matter. You can learn a lot about yourself that way, if you are honest and can detach yourself from the emotional aspects. I’ve had people say I lack empathy but I don’t feel like that is true. My thought is the people saying that are simply upset that I don’t agree with them. You can understand completely and still have a completely different reaction. Some people panic while others remain calm. I tend to remain calm in most situations.

Well, I’ll just think about all this some more. I did have a habit of posting every day, I don’t think I will continue with that. Perhaps a little less frequently will yield a bit more interesting topics. I can still only write with authority about one thing, and that is me. It’s a tough row to hoe. I’d say I was a pretty nondescript individual. I’m just around, in the niche should you need me for anything.

What to put in the niche?